I hide, I evade and yes, I damn well lie

But it keeps coming back

In the periphery of my mind’s eye

More invasively every fucking time

It hurts so damned much

The anger, the disgust

My own breach of self trust

What will it take…

To make it all go away?

Who will come sweep up the pieces

When I crumble? Break? Disintegrate?

Lie, scattered all over the floor

Broken open… Exposed to my very core?

What do I do, to be free?

From everything it should have never been

Accept it for the madness it was…I must!

Forgive myself

I need no longer give in

To an age old, primitive lust.


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