We’ve never met
Indeed, you were a part of me
One might think it strange
You lived with me each and every day
I would know you in an instant
Had we ever come face to face.
How is it possible to loose something you’ve never even held?
It’s true, I did not known you
You left me before your time was near
I thought I had no choice
I never allowed myself to love you
I knew only anger, rage and fear.
Throughout the years, you appeared in my darkness
Beckoning me towards your light
Whispering gently, “Let loose your tears
Pain, anguish and fears.”
I could never forgive myself, try as I might
Was I finally able to safely feel what I denied myself, most of my life?
I hear, “Silence… please… it will be alright.”
I can no longer stand the pain in my heart
I release my self-hatred, my cold hard bed
Forgive me, my past, my judgements, my self-loathing
As I dispose of each egoic flaw, I find myself disclosing
Through eyes of unconditional love.
Ocean, my wise teacher
My unborn child, I denied you, your life
You, beautiful spirit, have healed me
Releasing me, without condemning me
Finally, I see what a blessing you’ve been…
The unconditional love you’ve wrapped around me and my life.
Dedicated to my unborn child, Ocean.
Featured Image- Profitt’s Point Beach, Prince Edward Island
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