My life is nothing like I imagined it to be
I never planned any of this
Believe you me
It’s not what one would think
I own nothing of which to speak
No house, not even a spouse
Alone, I eat, sleep and drink
Even though I’ve had all the things that money can buy
I’ve been lost for a long time
Where did I truly belong?
Always searching here, there and everywhere
Sometimes wondering, who the hell even cared?
At once, everything changed
As it always does
It happened much like this:
While birds, squirrels and wind were whistling at me
These three questions fell right out of an enormous tree
Exactly, who was I pretending to be?
What of all this self-deceit?
Why has it taken so long for me to see?
I need only accept myself just as I am
Then, I pleaded: show me how I begin
“Just let go of everything you think you know”
And, when I did
Everything just… slid
Right into the ground
Roof caved in
Floors gave way
Doors split wide open
Windows blew… sky high
I became a mortal catastrophe!
And, it was from this moment
I found myself free
I had nothing left to call my own
That’s when I knew
My own home.
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