My life is nothing like I imagined it to be

I never planned any of this


Believe you me


It’s not what one would think

I own nothing of which to speak


No house, not even a spouse

Alone, I eat, sleep and drink


Even though I’ve had all the things that money can buy

I’ve been lost for a long time


Where did I truly belong?


Always searching here, there and everywhere

Sometimes wondering, who the hell even cared?


At once, everything changed

As it always does


It happened much like this:


While birds, squirrels and wind were whistling at me

These three questions fell right out of an enormous tree


Exactly, who was I pretending to be?

What of all this self-deceit?

Why has it taken so long for me to see?


I need only accept myself just as I am

Then, I pleaded: show me how I begin


“Just let go of everything you think you know”


And, when I did

Everything just… slid


Right into the ground


Roof caved in

Floors gave way

Doors split wide open

Windows blew… sky high


I became a mortal catastrophe!


And, it was from this moment

I found myself free


I had nothing left to call my own

That’s when I knew


I am

My own home.


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